This is my first post. If you are reading this than you most likely know me. If not, My Name is Christian Ceja. I'm a big brother, I'm half cynic half romantic. I'm a character actor with the insatiable yet sincere need to play the hero.I love rain, music, serenity, and surprise. I've never considered myself to be an interesting host, I'm a very simple boy/man, average looks, average life, however my outlook on life has always been something I've prided myself in. In layman's terms, I'm somewhat of a "dork" with good intentions. I'm a keen observer when the situation calls for it and I am a participant when I see it fit. I'm not a liar, but I withhold truths. I've always felt it best to know much more than I lead on to know. Most of the time I'd rather not stir the pot and allow things to occur naturally without my disturbance. I appreciate the beauty in everything...the aesthetic, the imaginative, the superficial, the mystery, the taboo, the colorful, the bold, the dark, the light, and my favorite, the simplicity. I can't promise that reading these posts will change your lives, or drag you to the precipice of epiphanies. I can not promise it will be a melting pot of emotion or adventure. The only thing I can promise you is that everything I post will be dripping with sincerity. It's the only thing I've learned to perfect. Perfect is something this blog won't be. There will be grammatical errors, there will be instances of delusion, overjoy, panic, sadness, profanity, euphoria and if I'm fortunate...clarity....but it will be honest.
I'm two weeks from my departure to Africa. The nerves aren't settling and lately it has been the one thing on my mind that has been a deciding factor in most of my daily choice. What the buy, what to eat, how to spend my last few days here. I'm unsure of what kind of person I will be when I come back.....but apparently the person I am right now is compartmentalized into two sides. One side is overwhelmed with excitement. The departure day couldn't come sooner. The other side is in a silent panic, overdosing on life as I know it. nights out, social indulgence, culinary indulgence, and now and again...alcoholic indulgence.....I'll spare you the details, but in essence, I know I will be a different person when I return and I know it will be for the better...but I was so getting used to who I know I am now.....
I could go for some warm tea and some company....here's to the night
-Sayha
